I remember writing about the chaotic script of my life.
And how surrendering it all was hard.
I had the desire to know You but I was bound to the world.
I was chained, though I read Your word!
I was just a church goer but not yet set free… So sad!
There are so many things that I knew were wrong but I kept doing them.
Blessings never meant freedom but I kept clinging unto them.
But today I want to write You a letter…
It’s no longer about self righteousness but about being set free.
Not about me but about You!
I used to speak about the things You gave me but now I will speak of Your love.
A love that has no bounds.
A love that has no limits.
I want You to manifest Yourself through me instead of me speaking about You.
Dear Christ,
You are Holy and You reign in majesty. Forever I will sing about Your glory.
Who is like You my Lord? Tears are flowing down my face as I remember about your mercy.
You have taken me from dust and cleaned my filthy rugs, forgiven me even when I can’t forgive others, You taught me how to forgive. It has been difficult to love as You do but Your presence has shaped and transformed me into a lover without bounds, though I am not perfect as You are. I will uplift Your name forever and sing about Your Grace which has counted me into the royal priesthood even though I did not deserve.
My pride is gone and down I bow in worship, I lift my hands and surrender it all to You. At the cross You die for my freedom, I have nothing to give in exchange but to just hold onto You. I would tell people how You have blessed me for following You, trying to make them envy me. Perhaps I though it would make them follow you. How wrong I was! I had not yet experienced Your love. It was only after truly knowing Your love that I started sharing to people about it. I wanted them to follow you to be loved and not just to be blessed. To focus on Your love and never on Your blessings.
I will forever speak about Your presence and of Your unconditional love! I had leaned on the world until You removed all the worldly strongholds and left me alone so that I could follow You. It was not easy, I kept going back to where You had rescued me from. But You kept reminding me of home! You reminded me of who I am and whose I am. My heart was weak and the fleshly desires were strong. Lord, You set me free from the world and allowed my heart to link to heaven and reconnect with home. I learnt to crucify my flesh and prayer became a routine because the heart was home and could easily connect to You through Your Holy Spirit.
Hebrews 11 has become a summary of the walk of faith that everything that is seen is being influenced by the unseen. It is through faith that I can trust on you and believe in Your word just as Abraham who left his home to a strange land.
With a grateful heart,
Yours, LKK🙏
