Even now, I more eagerly await His coming,
More than ever I desire that the End would come.
But my desire is selfish and my motives are wrong!
For it is the end of my sorrows I desire most in this moment,
More than Him, selfishly so.
It is an escape that I mostly seek, more than to dwell in Him.
Perhaps these sorrows shall continue relentlessly so,
Till I desire Him more than anything,
More than the pleasures of my heart,
Till I find joy in the sorrows.
When Readiness and Hope fill my wait,
Slowly replacing the despair and resentment.
I must say, this sorrow has been of some profit.
For in the end, if my desire to be with my King and be loved by Him is increased, then that is great profit.
Indeed I will count it all Joy!
If in all these my faith is strengthened,
Purified through the furnace, become like gold,
I will count it all Joy!
I will wait for my King… Hope renews my heart,
I will say it aloud…Â Let Joy fill my heart in Hope!
With a faith that says “even if”, I will be patient in affliction,
Even now, even through this it is You I long for!
It is my King I desire most! He is my hope and Salvation!Â
Maranatha! Come Lord Jesus!
~LM🌻🌻
Psalm 73:25–26 (ESV)
Whom have I in heaven but you?
And there is nothing on earth that I desire besides you.
My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.